Monday, May 10, 2010

To blog or not to blog...that is MY question.


Yes...I'm here.

And life has changed. In a positive way.

About 2 posts ago, I went to work and my boss told me that we would be closing our restaurant down and had to prepare to tell our staff.

For about a week after, I digested the fact that I would be part of the unemployed world. My mind replayed so many blogs I had read over the years and reading the frustration, and some heartache. I wasn't sure what or where I was going to go. I'd been working since I was 16 years old.

But the opportunities that lay ahead without guilt of having 'jumped ship' wouldn't be sitting hard on my shoulders. BFF and family members that were aware of my near jobless future sent me links to this or that, and I didn't feel so heavy.

And then...an old friend/co-worker/boss person said he wanted me over at his place. We discussed when I would be done with my current job and his approval for a couple of weeks before I started with him (and more money) sealed the deal.

Whew, I had found a job before I lost my job. I was blessed.

So I've been 'jobless' the last 3 weeks. I found myself staring at this blog saying...LOOK at all the time you have Rambler....you could blog EVERYDAY if you wanted.

But I didn't.

I don't want to joke about losing my mojo...but I feel like I've lost my passion for my good ol blog.

Do I discontinue my blog?

Do I dare type the words "It's been great"....?

I don't know.

But I like everything about this blog. That it allowed me to be more confident in myself. To get a small readership of fantastic people. That was beyond anything I thought when starting this blog to share with my family what originally was just about what coffee I got at Starbucks that day, or how crappy my work day was.

So maybe....maybe....I'll just stay. Not because I'm obligated. (Cause, come on, it's MY blog and I can whine if I want to.)

But maybe because I just need to find the passion again to write. And maybe that passion will be reignited with the new job.

Thanks for hanging in there friends.