Monday, November 09, 2009

I....Will keep my Sh*t together....I will

When I open my eyes Thursday morning and wake a grumpy little girl earlier than she's used to, dress her, put cute little piggy tails in her hair...I...Will keep my sh*t together...I will.

When I cut the crusts off her tiny little turkey sandwich, sneak a Smore's Granola bar, veggies, and a Juice Box....I...Will keep my sh*t together...I will.

When I start the car, pull out...stop the car, strap the kid IN her seat...I will keep my sh*t together...I will.

When we walk through her PRESCHOOL doors for the first time (actually second if you count the tour), with her hand in mine, and make our way to her classroom...I will keep my sh*t together...I will.

When I kiss her goodbye, and get cut off in my plea for love and adoration that I am the most wonderful mom ever when she excitedly sees her Teachers Aunty Awesome & Aunty Amazing...I will keep my sh*t together...I will.

When I walk back into the hallway and see the other parents...I will smile...do the parent nod...and pretend...my lip may quiver...BUT I will keep my sh*t together...I will.

When the owner sees me at the entrance doors and says everything will be ok....I will keep my sh*t together...I will.

I may for a moment actually think I will stay in the parking lot until she is done 8 hours later...I will keep my sh*t together...I will.

When sanity takes over, I will drive home, wave to the neighbors, walk proudly up the stairs without her tagging along, I will unlock the door, plop on the couch, look around to the quiet and empty house...

....Wait, did I just write QUIET & EMPTY?

:Cricket Noise & Tumbleweeds:

My baby is in preschool...and her mommy has the whole house to herself!





36 ramblings of your own:

Saskia said...

Oh Rambler... what an eventful day thursday will be! I will be thinking of you & sending big (unfortunately virtual) hugs your way.

xxx

PS your postcard arrived on Saturday - what a completely FAB card!! Even Mr B loved it. And he is difficult to please (: Thank you.

Tooj said...

Ah. :) The day so of worrying. It gets soooo much easier. I will be thinking of you on Thursday though......and that quiet house? Woman, I only wish I could be at mine to enjoy it.

Krissy said...

i know that you will be ok. yes, you will keep it together. but after passing everyone, you'll cry before you hit the car. yet, you'll still keep it together. i'll be thinking of you on thursday and i'll tell my husband to give you big huggies since unfortunately, that's the day that i work all day and can't come and visit you. maddie has an awesome mommy!!!!

hiphophippie.com said...

Oh my goodness, I can't even imagine how emotional this must be!! But free time, ahhhh! A glorious thing!! xoxo

Chocolate Lover said...

Free time must feel good!
Thx for stopping by my blog!

blueviolet said...

It's bittersweet, isn't it? Did you say preschool lasts 8 hours?? It will fly by no matter how long it is. Take advantage of your alone time, but the first day make it all about you!

Shorty said...

Enjoy your time off, my friend! I think you'll adjust quickly... and don't let those 'guilties' set in. You deserve some time off! And she's getting some quality social time, so all's good! : )

Christina said...

It takes some getting use to. I was always more upset than the kids. You'll figure it out soon enough and have no trouble finding something to do.

sammy said...

i think my wife had a party when all 3 of ours hit school age! lol

kidding but not ; )

Mighty M said...

Aw.... Those first few times are hard, but try to enjoy the quiet! ;)

WhisperingWriter said...

Free time!

I'm jealous.

I mean, I'll be upset when Natalie starts school. The whole "my last baby is growing up" thing. But then I'll be all, "I can read. In peace. I can write. In peace. I can finally catch up on my DVRed shows. IN PEACE!"

Queenie Jeannie said...

Hugs! We've all been there....and survived!

K said...

My little man started preschool this year too.

The first coupls of weeks were hard, but now I'm kinda loving the off time.

Good luck.

Patty said...

Oh my. Best of luck! I can' imagine.

Proud to be Me-a wife, a mom, a student said...

Big Hugs from far away! Thursday will be great, you'll see. And as for keeping your sh*t together, well I tried that when I dropped my boy off for the first time and lasted all of about ten seconds, I was crying walking to my truck and you know what every mom I saw understood and tossed me a knowing smile. So let it out if you want too, and screw what anyone else thinks..lol! Love you!!!

Unknown Mami said...

That was beautiful. What did you do with yourself?

Synergy Girl said...

NICE!! I love it! Sometimes I wonder if I will EVER have a quiet moment...maybe not for a long time...and maybe when it comes...I might miss the noise...maybe...

Gamma Sharon said...

Oooohhh, I so remember those days with my girls... it brings a tear to my eyes. {{hugs}}

Cairo Typ0 said...

Hi, stopping by from SITS! :)

People always talk about how hard the first day of school is for kids. But in truth it's just as hard on mommy. *hugs*

Noelle said...

this is a good mantra for me to repeat...keep my sh*t together...

visiting from sits...and love your blog!

Designs by Jessie said...

the first day is hard. but the second day is AWESOME!

stopping by from SITS...

Martha said...

You will keep your sh*+ together and you will even come to enjoy it.
Big ((HUGS)) for you and Lil Ramberlina.

Melissa B. said...

Oh, baby steps! Before you know it, the kiddos will be off to college, and that's a scary proposition. SITS sent me by, and I'm glad they did...

SFO Jungle Kitty

Sherendipity said...

Even if you didn't keep it together, that's okay, too.
This is one of those days that you cherish. A beautiful memory in the making.

Anti-Supermom said...

Yeah, it only takes a few days to get adjusted and then you start crying when preschool is home and you no longer have free time.

With her at school, you can now get your $hit together ;) - you will love it.

Mammatalk said...

Oh, this is tough. But, you will make it!

Shawn said...

Oh, how I can relate!! I had a baby 12 years after the last one----so when my youngest daughter graduated from high school, my youngest son was starting Kindergarten....

Now THAT is a day that I will NEVER forget!!

BlogBaby said...

It's okay NOT to keep your "Stuff" together, some of us cry for no reason at all and you certainly had a reason to shed at least a tear or two. No one would blame you. Heck they'd pretty much love you for it 'cuz a mama so sad to part with her little girl is adorable.

Now on the other hand if you had yelled "So long Sucka!" and ran out like a bat out of you know where well....that might not have gone over so well.

Something to consider as you get used to the idea of your baby being in Preschool.

BlogBaby

P.S. Thanks for stopping by (again) for my SITS day today!

Pseudonymous High School Teacher said...

I put my daughter in part time pre-school when she was 2 and 1/2. It was called "mom's time out," and it was three mornings a week for four hours. Tht first day, I went down to the beach with a magazine and even took a nap. I remember what a relief it was to not be a guard for a near drowning.

Shan said...

I'm just catching up. I hope you had a mostly tear-free day. If not, don't worry... you've got at least a few more years to work on it. Kindergarten is a doozy, but so is first grade (what?!? my baby's gonna play on the BIG KIDS' playground? NOOO!). The good news is we survive them all.

And happy finding what you like to do now!

The Blonde Duck said...

Awww! What a wonderful time for both her and you!

Grand Pooba said...

Hahaha! I'm sure you'll find SOMETHING to occupy your time.

Mammatalk said...

Dying to hear how it went.

The Marketing Mama said...

Stopping by from SITS. Hope the first day went well... I can totally relate to this post! :)

Yaya said...

Lol! Enjoy it!

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